[hellfire and damnation]

Alright, I was supposed to have posted music last Monday which rolled over to this Monday which I did not do due to various things. Did you get that? I hope so, because I don’t want to repeat it.

Music (not so) Monday Picks:

kerbey - Pedro The Lion, Space Team Electra
dismarum - Rainer Maria, Helium (aka Mary Timony)

Someone described my tone of voice today as “not all out nuclear holocaust; it’s just gunfire in the streets. You’re doing better than usual.” I’ll take that as a positive. I can’t ever tell when it crosses the Boundary of Acceptable; I’ll attribute this to some of my social awkwardness. I’m working on being more cordial in general.

This might be my new interest, thanks to Flapjacks.

Everyone do a clean refresh and look at the marvelous new header provided by kerbey. She’s the vector goddess.

On a more serious note (as things usually seem to go this way with me) - I severely dislike the idea that several people that I am acutely responsible for will come into my life for a given amount of time (all relatively long intervals, with some being extended over the frame of years) and at the end of their juncture with me, I give them a farewell (if I even get to) and that is all. I’ve lost contact. I have been given the responsibility to take care of them and then, when they’ve just started to trust, just started to function on some level of productiveness, it is time to go. Time to move on somewhere new, better, freer. And so they do, and you’re left hoping and praying that they grow up well, because your time to see them mature and learn is over and done with a high level of finality. Some you think about from time to time, whenever their favorite song comes on the radio, and some you think about daily because you can’t help it. And if you’re me, you send your most sincere prayers to God that you will never see any of them again, because if you do, it’ll probably be in a rehab center and you’re back to the start, 15 years later.

On that note, I think it’s time to play Battlefield 2142.

Yep.

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  1. Comment by jane | 2007/06/13 at 07:14:05

    I really think you should watch more Judging Amy. Maxine (and sometimes Amy) deals with this kind of thing all the time–she grows attached to a particular kid, goes to bat for the kid, and sometimes it ends up well and sometimes not. It’s heartbreaking, but maybe there’d be some words of wisdom in there for you. Maybe some way of coping or finding comfort.
    Because, you know, life is exactly like TV. And vice-versa.

  2. Comment by thredd | 2007/06/13 at 19:48:33

    omg.
    .
    i was so about to write sensitive comment and jane is all JUDGING AMY and shit.
    i am laffing to the tune of IDIOCRACY.
    .
    not saying jane is an |idiot|
    .
    just, DO YOU GUYS LIVE TOGETHER or something?
    ..
    OMG, that is so harsh it is funny.
    ,
    any way
    .
    yes, in a way
    LIFE IS EXACTLY LIKE TV
    as i have sed before:
    “the [movies] are making money off of my madness”
    ..
    and consider yerself TAGGED
    .
    but, no
    you do not have a javascript /applet spraypaint app.
    for me to tagg me tagg all over the:TD TRAIN
    THREDD:..
    with my TAGG ART/THREDD CRIME
    .
    SUP
    .
    it’ll b. okay, watson.
    the kidds are okay fer now.
    now is all we have.
    ..
    no, there are many times = no
    “goodbyes”
    and apparent;y with YOU+arms+kidds=
    lotso BITES.
    ..
    xo

  3. Comment by thredd | 2007/06/13 at 19:53:00

    and just SEEING dis.m and pedro in same uhhh…
    2 lines together/ feels like a latent undergound christian heroin overdose.
    :.
    and yet i give not away the fact:
    do i know “pedro” of the lion
    do i “like” his music
    have i “played” with him at a large hot sweaty venue
    have we discussed thoughts of “suicide” “melancholy feelings” AND “christianity” in same “sentence” before?
    ..
    no
    .
    i am not suggesting any of these things.

  4. Comment by thredd | 2007/06/15 at 17:19:22

    watson: which flapjaks is yu pointin happy at????
    ..
    thats such a happy point!
    .
    you know i am speedy.
    and speedy will always think a point, whether not so happy or happy is at sherlock.
    and sherlock knows black m talks just way to much=flapjaks.
    ..
    and had already took the guilliani comment to me ghost girl/thredd taggin days in the big apple
    ..
    and now i am givin moriarity my SECRETS!
    DARN!
    .
    any way
    .
    no matter wot!
    that’s a happy point!
    .
    [in yer picture! dis.m!]

  5. Comment by thredd | 2007/06/15 at 17:23:12

    o god, never mind ALL THAT ABOVE.
    the pics r random.
    “speedy sez”
    ..
    NOW THAT”S A CLUE
    sed hunter.z.
    .
    jane asked?am i world liazon?
    .
    ??

  6. Comment by dismarum | 2007/06/19 at 01:24:13

    Haha, alright Sherlock. Actually, one attempted to bite me on the ass not too long ago, but the right arm always seems to fall casualty.

    And noo, we don’t live together. I’m about 4.5 miles down the way.

    How are things?

  7. Comment by thredd | 2007/06/28 at 23:55:50

    what was the question?


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