[…….yes ma’am, i did just ask if you had bleeding ulcers]

Man I am tired. And sparse for words. I’m going through a transitioning period for me, meaning I’m more apt to keep things to myself. This doesn’t come from a desire to not speak about such things, but rather out of laziness. The idea of recounting things I’m just becoming adjusted to makes me feel like I’m doing it all over again and wears me out. Change is big for me; I don’t seek it often. When I do, it is typically of large importance and great weight. See? I just used heavy, tiring words.

Today everything seemed silly. Everything. Driving a car was silly. Perusing entertainment was silly. Painting my nails was silly. Shopping for comfortable business casual shoes was silly (and annoying). My existence was a dark comedy bordering on existentialist. I don’t buy into that philosophy at all but it had an odd hold on me today.

Ahhh. I’m tired. Off to bed. My parting gift to you is to say that if your morbid curiosity gets the better of you and you end up viewing any of jane’s Green Porno, the firefly segment is kinda funny.

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  1. Comment by Stephanie | 2008/06/19 at 18:09:23

    Hey dude. I’m keeping up with you via website.

    How did CLRTC end, besides tears? Fireworks? QR? Mop?

    How’s DT and SM? I thought about those two last night. It did make me sad, which is the first genuine feeling of sadness I’ve had towards CLRTC since leaving. I think I have “distance” now.

    Anyways, here’s a comic I found here in Portland. I only like it because it has me as a starring character (check out the 2 weeks after this one).

    http://www.jsayers.com/thingpart/thingpart161.html

    Give Lubbock a big fat dusty kiss for me.

  2. Comment by dismarum | 2008/06/19 at 18:36:07

    Steph! I got your postcard today. Viva la tiny elven folk.

    My last night at CLRTC was us running with three people, one of which was Mel. Yep. It was thankfully human excrement free, but made up for it in large amounts of BS.

    DT got busted for stealing shoes from Juana’s office right before I left. SM was the one who actually made me cry a bit because she wouldn’t stop hugging me as I was trying to walk out the girls’ pod door after I said goodbye. She was behaving the week I left. Ohh and DO’s last day was the same as mine. He shipped off to another RTC in Houston. Scary, ‘eh? I totally left at a good time. The detox center so far is really slack from what we’re used to. It’s pretty awesome.

    I thought your mannequin’s name was Dave.

    Catch a good show for me in Portland.

  3. Comment by Stephanie | 2008/06/23 at 21:05:19

    Haha, Mel.


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